Visionary

"Knowledge of the self is the mother of all knowledge. So it is encumbent on me to know my self, to know it completely, to know its minutiae, its characteristics, its subtleties, and its very atoms." - Kahlil Gibran

Stopped into Book People tonight to pick up a collection of short stories. I want to read how other people write, in the short story form. I'm still such a young writer, such a novice, that I thought it might be helpful to see how others compose sentences, use their words and also, to see what sorts of stories other people write.

I noticed a man sitting off to the side with a small, handwritten sign that said, "Psychic Readings". I walked past him, then returned to him. On the table in front of him were a deck of Tarot cards. This is what he told me:

You are questioning your instincts. You need to rely on them, because your intuitions are solid, you are always correct. What you think you know, you do know. You can trust it as fact. You have been bound and blindfolded by captors that are no longer present. You have a great deal of love and empathy to give and you gave so much of yourself to someone or someones who did not appreciate it. They took it for granted and didn't treat you with the respect you deserve, they did not value the love you gave. That situation is over, but you still feel bound by it, even though the captor is gone. The guilt you feel lies within yourself, you can let it go. That is a debt that has been paid, multiple times. You are struggling with whether and how to move forward. You fear going forward, but you must. You use your work as an excuse to stay where you are, but you can move forward. In fact, you must. Let go of the fear and embark on your own journey. Experience your life, live with intention and experience all the joy the world has to offer. For far too long you've neglected your own joy and it's time you move ahead. You have a relationship in mind, but it's puzzling to me - it's not a real relationship, but you have an idea of a relationship in mind. There is someone in your life that represents the sort of relationship you aspire to, but there isn't a connection there, you do not feel connected there. In fact, you don't feel connected to anyone or anything. You're trying to learn how to be the loving, empathetic person that you are without giving too much of yourself because of the way you've been hurt in the past. You have a great deal of work to do and now is the time to do it. I see this in a metaphorical sense - the work you must do on yourself to acquire the life you want, but also in the literal sense - your career can help be the escape you need right now. This is the time to learn yourself, to be introspective and to rely on your intuition and get to know who you are, without all the background noise, without people telling you who you are. The Universe is constantly sending you signs - you look at the clock at the same time every day, you see things that slap you in the face. You only notice about half of them. But they are trying to get you to pay attention, trying to get you to rely on what you already know.

He then turned over the final card, which was The High Priestess: Wisdom. You'll achieve the resolution you seek in this matter, but now is the time to focus on learning all you can, about who you are and who you wish to become. I see this as a fortuitous omen.

I left this little man feeling incredibly drained. And you know, it's funny - I don't remember giving him this website. ;-) He didn't predict my future, but he certainly read me right now.